Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Subconscious Sabotage

Horror of horrors. Apparently the writers of bad soap operas do get their material from somewhere.

Yesterday morning I awoke to the usual ritual of TMI's warm cozy embrace and a groggy "je t'aime." Still 95% asleep and only partially in control of my motor skills, I responded, hold your breath now: "and I loooove yooouu (x-boyfriend's name.)" The moment the words were out of my mouth I face-palmed in sincere horror. I hadn't been thinking about the guy nearly ever save for the occasional moments of distate once or twice a month, and I certainly hadn't been dreaming about him. But of course all of this couldn't be communicated in the moment; I think I probably just groaned in disbelief as TMI tossed off the blankets, hurtled out of bed, and proclaimed coldly "I'm going to class." He was out the door before I fully knew if I was dreaming it or not.

I cried, totally confused and feeling very wronged by forces greater than I. My x? Really?? You mean the one I'm sincerely distressed by the meere distasteful memory of? Blurted in a loving phrase to the man I love more than life it's self? Haha, very funny, universe.

My friends asked if TMI actually knew of the guy so I couldn't pass it off as a Star Wars name or something. But alas. Things seem relatively patched up now, but I'm honestly scared of my own mouth now. From now on early morning "I love you's" will be communicated strictly with actions.. and with words only after a cup of tea.

1 comment:

  1. When my husband and I first started dating, we had a few slips where we called each other by our ex's names. Once, during a fight I said "Oh my god, get over it {ex's name}." I didn't mean to, and I hadn't even thought of the guy in a very long time. It just slipped and I have no idea why. And once while he was trying to explain something to me he said "{Ex's name} not that one, it's the other one." I can't for the life of me tell you where his head was at though. LOL!

    I guess my point is, it happens! It sucks, and we end up wanting to bury our heads in the sheets. Still, it might be a good idea to make sure you're fully awake before exchanging "I love you's" in the morning.


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